The Reset

reset

[rē-ˈset] verb

to set, adjust, or fix in a new or different way

I feel like I’ve been on autopilot lately. Wake up, work, study, sleep, repeat. I’ve told myself that I’m tired and busy, which I am. Working a full-time job while carrying a full-time graduate course load is difficult, to say the least.

Yet as tired as I am, I have found a weird comfort in going through the motions. It’s comfortable doing what you have to do and what’s expected of you. Going through life mechanically requires little creativity, emotional investment, or risk.

But underneath my comfort, there’s actually a bit of fear. This year, I went from talking about the things in my life that I wanted to change to making those changes…and that scares me.

I'm scared of letting go of the older version of myself. That version of me formed to protect me. She’s closed, careful, and complacent. She doesn't ruffle feathers. All of her decisions hinge on whether or not others will approve. She’s practical. She avoids having to trust God by planning out every detail of her life.

She is comfortable, unfulfilled, but comfortable. Unfortunately, no one told me how painful and uncomfortable shedding old layers of yourself can be.

But, it made me wonder. When did I start believing the lie that comfort was enough? At what point in my life did I start choosing comfort over fulfillment?

I can’t pinpoint the exact moment when I started settling for complacency, but I do know this: the only thing that scares me more than leaving my comfort zone is leaving this Earth full.

My worst nightmare is getting to the end of my life only to realize that I haven't stirred up every gift and dream God has given me. I resent the idea of running this race and getting to the finish line just to wonder who I could have been and whose life I could have touched if I just stopped getting in my own way.

At this point, as scared as I am of what lies on the other side pursuing God and His purpose for my life, I think I’m more afraid of what will happen if I don’t. Hear me:

You were not created to work and die. You were created for so much more.

There are literally people attached to your destiny whose future are contingent on you giving life to whatever God has laid on your heart.

You might feel discouraged because you started the fourth quarter a little shaky like me, or maybe you’ve spent the whole year pushing things off. But trust me, it’s not too late.

Hiding behind old habits, behaviors, and mindsets shields us from the discomfort of growth now, but in the long run, it only stifles our potential. Comfort breeds mediocrity and we both know you're better than that.

Your time has not passed yet. It’s not too late to restart or reset. It’s not too late to recommit to the habits that bring out the best in you. Regroup and set a new pace if the old one stopped working. Write down your priorities for the last few months of the year and bring them to God in prayer. Then start moving.

You have not missed your moment. In fact, you're standing in your moment, the moment, right now.

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. Isaiah 43:18-19

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